I am amazed, yet ironically, not surprised, at the unleashing of my own potential. Just spending an hour per day has made classical music learning and composition a habit and a surefire passion that I look forward to each evening. When I see “her,” this grand black beauty of a song, I am left struck…When I work on this big-eyed baby, it is straight up focus and I am left somewhere within the spectrum of in flow, all smiles, and euphoric. It is nothing short of a New Age love affair.
Initially I committed to spending just 20 minutes per day. 20 minutes soon turned into an hour, sometimes two. That Saturday, when the clock struck midnight, the glass slipper was not found…because it was never lost. Four hours, some spilling into the wee hours of the morning, became within the spiritual realm of normal.
I believe in who I am, and what my musical talents are, and no one can take that away from me. When someone tells you that you won’t succeed, it is but a reflection of their own limitations, not yours. Surround yourself with people who inspire you, motivate you, and believe in you and you will be lifted higher and higher into seeing yourself for your potential.
Thank you so much to Hadar for initiating and enrolling us all into PSP Life. I am sure it has made a huge difference for many others as well. What a legacy you have created! I have not felt so consistently, keyword “consistently,” motivated and committed, creating results after results, songs and tunes among the garden variety of creativity, in a while. I just submitted my first ever official piece over for a romantic classical music piece for a television show featuring a wedding. I kept playing the piece over and over…and it felt absolutely heavenly. Love is in the air.
When I was 5 years old. My mother knew my love for Tina… I was obsessed with Whats Love Got To Do With IT…. loved the video, look, etc.. I wanted to be her. My mother and I were in the drug store shopping and I happened to be in the section of beauty with her and noticed the LEE press on nails. I asked my mother for them and red nail polish so I could be Tina for the day and perform the song. The supportive mother I have in ALL I wanted bought them for me. got home.. helped me put them on and I popped in the cassette into my boom box, did a performance of the song…(in the front yard). I felt alive, in touch and on fire as Tina always made me feel. She helped me understand how to feel when I perform. Just makes sense.. I thank my mother till this day for allowing me to be ME…. Parents who support their kids through every interest without judgement is allowing their child to grow creatively and organically. When parents shun things away out of fear is when the creative bus starts to melt away. Let your kids shine and let them be themselves in every moment of life.
So I’m acting as the Office Manager in lieu of a recent employee’s departure from the firm, and I’ve been given an immediate salary increase, corporate card, authorization to buy whatever I need for myself & the office, plus a new iPhone for business purposes. And I’ve been tasked with hiring temps as needed, sourcing vendors and attending business meetings and functions for the office. I’ll also be in Edinburgh much sooner than I thought. This is so exciting! If all goes well I can solidify my role by mid-year and get my new “official” salary. So birthday drinks are also going to be a celebration of success in my professional life. Yay!
Getting ready to lead the landmark forum this weekend…Mother’s Day weekend…what a great place to spend Mother’s Day especially since it was my mother who originally did transformational work…i cannot believe i get to lead the forum…a total dream come true.
Maybe it’s not that he/she doesn’t want to be there for you. Maybe at some point you acted as though you didn’t want or need him/her around. Maybe people get tired of fighting for space in your life, and that’s fine, because maybe they just don’t belong there and that’s also fine. Maybe there are people willing to move heaven and Earth to stay relevant to you, and that’s fine. Maybe others aren’t, and that’s also fine. It doesn’t mean they don’t love you. You spend so much time quantifying and qualifying a person’s love for you that you overlook the numerous ways it shows up in your life. It needs to look one way and when it doesn’t look that way, it doesn’t count. Some people are cool with proving their love for you by showing it your way. And some people love themselves enough to know they deserve the love of someone who accepts the way THEY love. Take it or leave it, it’s all fine.
It always begins and ends with us.. Look in the mirror. There’s our hero. Never settle for less than what our heart tells us is real. It’s out there. But it’s a must to begin the search within. Dive full force towards your heart’s inner calling and faith will lead the way, creating one of the most amazing adventures ever to be lived.
Tomorrow evening marks the 30th anniversary of the night that changed my life forever. At the age of 17 my boyfriend was killed in a car accident. I was supposed to be with him that evening. New Year’s eve day has always been the most difficult day of the year for me. Three days after the loss of my boyfriend, I found out I was pregnant. My daughter Autumn is now 29 years old. I forever I’m grateful that he left me such a wonderful gift. Autumn and I grew up together. We struggled through many rough times. And, it made us so grateful for what we have today. Being a single parent was difficult. But the gift of life was so worth it. David will always be in my heart. Until the day we meet again, once again I thank him for the joy that he brought into my life. He is the reason I am who I am today. He chose the wonderful husband that would later be the father to Autumn. Christopher has been the best father anyone could ever have. I am blessed.
Today I finished my last class of graduate school. And though I am not technically done as a result of going back on dialysis, I can say that I am proud of myself and all the hard work and sacrifice it took to get to where I am today. This will be my second Masters degree as soon as I cross my T’s and dot my I’s. If you would have asked me as a teenager growing up in East Harlem during the tumultuous 80’s, a high school diploma was questionable and highly unlikely. For those of you who know my story know that nothing comes easy for me, but you also know that I am as strong as they come and I have the gumption to believe when others may have questioned my decisions. Life is still throwing me curve balls and I continue to square them up and line them into the gaps – I will continue to do so until its my time.
Message in all of this, Don’t quit. There will be moments and spaces of time where that seems like the best thing to do and it will be presented to you on a beautiful platter – don’t eat it. Believe in yourself when others don’t. Believe in your strength when you are at your weakest and never give up on you. Have faith – in you, in your God, in your Universe and in those who love you.
Sometimes the creative forgets that he/she needs creativity to create. The same as the inspirer needs inspiration to inspire. This cannot be forgotten. You cannot go through life unfed and attempt to feed others successfully. To feed yourself is not selfish. In fact it’s the most unselfish thing you can do. You are a vessel that life moves through and this vessel must be nurtured. Physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. As you are out in the world, helping the world, don’t forget to help yourself as well.